That's why I need to take the first step. Trying to change it since I'm their only hope. Their only child. And to do that I need to focus. Followed dad advice to keep focus on my goals. To be able to do that I need to be selfish, and by being selfish I had to cut off other relationship (serious one) since I cant afford commitment and tired of waiting. Excuse? No, this is what I really feels. Can't hold all this together anymore. I need a space for myself.
So if you want to wait, it up to your own decision, and if you want to leave it also on you. I can't do anything about it. But believe this, inside of my heart, my head you will be there. Albeit it will be hurt when you leave, I wont say it. It will be on me and I'll bear with it in time. It's not the first time and by time, I already get used to it.
"I'll be fine."